Archive for February, 2008

Fire Conclave

So.  Let me set up the scene.Burning Man. It goes Monday to Monday. The energy and the number of people each day grows and grows.

Saturday, as soon as it’s dark, suddenly the mass of 50,000 people and numerous art cars that were running around in chaotic directions up to now all start to migrate to one place.

The middle of the city is where the Man stands. And tonight, he burns.

You sit down as close to the man as you can. Rangers stand guard to protect the inner perimeter. Drinks are passed, you make new friends with the people sitting next to you as you pass the time.

Suddenly, you hear a drum beat. a procession of drummers and keepers of the flame walk around the inner circle

The processional members eventually reach their destination in various places around the man.

The man, for the first time all week, has his arms reached above his head.

And as the drums pick up from a slow beat into a tribal rhythm that you can feel through the ground you are sitting on, the Conclave starts.

The Conclave is the word for the fire performers who perform at this special moment.

Troupes from all over the country and world apply to be part of this. They work on their choregraphy and costumes for over half a year.

when they are done, fireworks will engulf the Man and he will burn.

and guess what….

I’m going to be part of it!!!!

I joined the philadelphia fire conclave group!!!! I’m equal parts scared and excited.  Many of the people in the group are just OUTSTANDING artists, and I’ll have to bust my ass from now until Burning Man (last week of August).  But I’m excited about how much better I’ll be by then, and the people in the group are amazing and supportive.

Now I need to figure out a character/costume for the first part of the piece – we are supposed to pick something that represents America, a stereotype or symbol of the melting pot of the country.  My only idea so far is from Halloween – I dressed up rockabilly/50’s style (I didn’t know what rockabilly was, but it’s pin-up type style, like the opening credits on LA Ink).  I’d have to redo a dress, because it needs to be natural materials (so they don’t melt if hit with fire ;o)   But, I was also thinking of really chopping my hair before BM and coloring it funky.  So the hairdo would be more difficult… 
Still pondering, if you have any ideas for a costume I’d love to hear it! ;o)
 Mr. Green
(All photos in this post are from the photo galleries. Sorry I didn’t pull proper credits on them…)


A friend posted this on tribe, not sure of the source…

Some astrological info on the eclipse tonight…

A lunar eclipse is a time of beginnings, endings, exposure and major changes. It always has something to do with “relationships”. The changes are tied to how we relate and will have a lasting impression. Emotions run high, causing upsets and feelings of disorientation. Actions taken often do not have the expected results, but they do bring awareness and enlightenment. The energy of an eclipse is at its strongest during the two days before and three days after its occurrence.

At lunar eclipses we: merge, unite, announce, contact, present ourselves, bring something out into the open, make decisions, engage, rise to the challenge, make an effort, change, get a new perspective, join with others, take on greater challenges, travel at a faster pace, feel restless, feel pressured by deadlines and a buildup of emotions, and experience excitement and crisis.

During a Full Moon, the Sun and Moon are in opposition, also called the Full Phase, indicating the linking of soul to spirit and awareness of purpose gained through relationship with another. A lunar eclipse is a supercharged Full Moon. The blocking of the Moon’s reflection of the Sun’s light by the Earth suggests that our material viewpoint stands in the way of our “seeing the light”. It serves as a reminder that we need to realize how we are held in the dark by virtue of our perspective.

Practicality and logical processes are temporarily out of balance. Harsh realities obscure spiritual ideals and block imaginative solutions. The challenge is to stay open to inspiration regardless of our daily circumstances.

Events associated with this eclipse had their origin in August 2006, were triggered into action in May 2007 and will resurface for completion beginning in November 2008. The last time a lunar eclipse occurred at this degree was in 1729. There was an eclipse close to this degree in February, 1989. A review of your life experiences around that time may provide clues to how you will experience this eclipse.

The eclipse does not have to fall in your sign for you to feel its effects. However, if your birthday is around Jan 7 or 22, Feb 20, Mar 21, Apr 6 or 21, May 22, Jun 22, Jul 8 or 24, Aug 24, Sep 24, Oct 9 or 24, Nov 23, Dec 23, you will definitely have an emotional response. If it makes any contacts to a planet or personal point in your chart, your experience of the eclipse will be heightened. 

The last full eclipse in August 2007, I was at Burning Man.  Watching it with friends from Jersey, and trying not to fall asleep.  Then, shouts that the Man was on fire – someone commited arson and torched it 5 days early…. 

The next one isn’t until December 2010, almost 3 years from now.

As I read my friend’s post up above, it made more sense that I am very antsy, haven’t been able to concentrate at work, right now just needed to get out of here, needing change. 

In discussing how I helped PEX set up and decorate for Heartburn, a friend who, (no offense to him), doesn’t get the burner spirit, says he would have just showed up and partied.  It’s difficult to explain the way we are drawn to give back and contribute to such an amazing community.  Here I sit, berating myself for not getting work done, and on Saturday, I willingly did whatever was needed.  I didn’t get a paycheck in return (in fact, they still need to reimburse me for some supplies I helped get) but it’s an energy exchange of another kind.  I’m not only looking to party and avoid responsibilities, but I only want to put forth my effort when it’s for a good cause.  Of course, a paycheck isn’t a bad cause, as it keeps a roof over my head and gas in the car to drive to Philly.

Just some random eclipse day thoughts.  Fed up with everything, tempted to just hide and sleep it out, but maybe there’s another answer….


A time comes in your life when you finally get it…

When, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out…


Enough fighting, and crying, and blaming, and struggling to hold on.

Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.

This is your awakening.

You realize it’s time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety, and security to magically appear over the next horizon.

You realize that in the real world there aren’t always fairy tale endings, and that any guarantee of “happily ever after” must begin with you…and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate, or approve of who or what you are…and that’s OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions.

You learn the importance of loving and championing yourself…and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.

You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you – or didn’t do for you – and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.

You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say, and that not everyone will always be there for you, and that everything isn’t always about you.

So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself…and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.

You stop judging and pointing fingers, and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties…and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.

You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view.

You begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.

You learn the difference between wanting and needing, and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you’ve outgrown or should never have bought into to begin with.

You learn that there is power and glory in creating and contributing, and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” looking for your next fix.

You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.

You learn that you don’t know everything, it’s not your job to save the world, and that you can’t teach a pig to sing.

You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.

Then you learn about love. You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be.

You learn that alone does not mean lonely.

You stop trying to control people, situations, and outcomes.

You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility, and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.

You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over, and ignoring your needs.

You learn that your body really is your temple. You begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin to eat a balanced diet, drink more water, and take more time to exercise.

You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.

You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you believe, what you allow, and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.

You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for, and that wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it happen.

More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline, and perseverance.

You also learn that no one can do it all alone, and that it’s OK to risk asking for help.

You learn the only thing you must truly fear is fear itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it, and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms.

You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.

You learn that life isn’t always fair, you don’t always get what you think you deserve, and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people…and you learn not to always take it personally.

You learn that nobody’s punishing you and everything isn’t always somebody’s fault. It’s just life happening.

You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.

You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy, and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you.

You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower.

Then, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself, and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself, and to never, ever settle for less than your heart’s desire.

You make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.

You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind.

Finally, with courage in your heart, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best you can.

Author Unknown

(Gratitude to Armadillo for posting it)

This video is great – I really recommend taking the time to watch it!


For those I’ve tried to convince of the awesomeness of PEX parties… If you want a sample of what you’ll find there, check out some amazing videos that Hedy and Eric have created — they are great people and very talented as well! Heartburn is this Saturday, Feb 16th, invite only, $20 at the door with costume ($50 without).

Right now I have 5 extra invites, and only a few “maybes” of people thinking of coming.  Come let me pour alcohol down your throat at the ice luge!!!  Holler if you want to claim an invite.

Ice Luge? What Ice Luge?

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Fountain of Youth

Yesterday was an interesting day, with quite the extremes….

First, I got dressed up in my new corset from Alter Ego on ebay (bought it for Heartburn).  My more traditional faire outfit/skirt wasn’t clean, so I just went with modern – a black knee length skirt and tall black boots.  I went down to Wicked Faire, where I caught up with an old friend, and did a bit of shopping. (Some practical and fun things for fire spinning, and some fun things from the adult only room ;o)

Next I was meeting up with friends to celebrate Meesh’s and her friend’s birthday.  I figured I’d show off my corset to her as part of her present hehe.  It’s been a LONG time since I walked into a Fuddruckers, and I did not expect quite so many ankle biters (kids) running around.  I closed my sweater and coat while walking back to their table, but still got some interesting looks I’m sure.  Showed off my purchases, and gave Meesh her gift.  Then we were out of there (after I did a quick change into t-shirt and jeans in the bathroom) and went to the FunPlex.

I grew up in this area, and often went bowling or to the movies across the street, but never made it in the FunPlex.  Let me tell you, I had a blast. I haven’t laughed that hard without alcohol in a LONG time — we went go-karting, bumper cars, laser tag, pinball, and dance dance revolution (I actually had never played it… I was scarred emotionally from doing henna at a gaming convention where I was across from that game and heard it non-stop for two days in a row… but it WAS fun!)

Ended up back at Minerva’s for some adult beverages, drinking out of my penis sippy cup ;o) from the faire.  Quite the contrast, going from R to PG and then back again…  but I had a blast, and I’m so happy that Meesh and Janay decided to do this for their birthday celebration!! Happy Birthday gals!!!

The American Dream

Please, I’d love to hear peoples’ thoughts on this.  Especially people who do NOT attend Burning Man or regional events.

  • What do you think of when you hear “The American Dream”? What does that mean to you?
  • This is the theme chosen for Burning Man this year, which is a counter-culture festival.  Whatever you know or don’t know about BM, how do you think this theme fits the event?
  • After you answer the first two, please read this description of the theme and it’s meaning for the event.  Does this change your viewpoint of the theme and how it fits the event?  

It’s a very controversial theme this year, even more so than the Green Man (environmental) theme last year.  The fire conclave group I joined asked our opinions about it, and I was curious what outsiders thought.  Please if you have a moment, share your opinion!! Thanks!


Plans for 08

Cross posted from Myspace:

OK so sometimes I promise I’m going to tell people about events and then forget who I promised… heehee…. Here are some big events coming up that I’ll be doing, if you have any interests in joining then you can contact me.

Feb 8-10 – Wicked Faire in Edison NJ although the site is wonky lately. I used to do henna there. I’m not working there this year. I’ll be attending (probably Saturday afternoon only) to do some shopping cause I like some of the vendors.

Feb 16 – PEX “Heartburn” – party in Philly. This Philly Burning Man camp puts on a kick ass party, all kinds of music, performances, fire dancers…. Invite only, I MAY have some spares or be able to get you some quickly so let me know if you are interested. goes from 10 pm (I get there earlier to help set up and will be volunteering on the ice luge 10-11) until after dawn. It’s $20 with costume, $50 without. So dress your ass up!!!! (Anything fun and obviously not street clothes/jeans is prob. fine)  Sign up on their mailing list if you want to hear about future parties (I think it’s about 3-4 a year?)

May 23-26 – PDF (Playa del fuego) in Delaware. Our regional “burn” event – tickets will go on sale March 22 and April 2 and may sell out almost immediately. I’ll try to grab ones for you if you know you are going.

June – most likely either June 6-8 or 13-15 – Wildfire – fire arts weekend with classes on poi, staff, hoop, breathing, etc.  Location not final, probably 45 minutes south of Boston. Ticket sale date not announced yet.

August 25 – Sept 1 – BURNING MAN! I’ll hopefully be performing in the philadelphia fire conclave the night of the big burn! (the conclave needs to be accepted but it shouldn’t be an issue) Tickets on sale now, and will only go up in price. they MAY sell out, and they will NOT be selling any at the gate regardless of whether they sell out.

I don’t have many other things planned.  After Burning Man, there’s Fall PDF, and maybe, MAYBE fall wildfire. 

 The veggie board retreat, I may or may not be able to go, depending on whether it’s driving distance and whether I have enough vacation time.  Same for any paloozas (for those who don’t know, it’s a nickname for parties with friends from a private message board) — Lhia’s is for sure, anything in NJ/NY/CT most likely.

From the end of February until mid August, I’ll be driving to Philly most Sundays for conclave practice.  (So – those in or near that route, if you ever want to do lunch or something let me know! I have to be in North Philly from 4-6 pm those days.)

Money probably will get tight for all these things, but the more pressing issue is time.  Vacation time.  We’ll see what happens.  Spring PDF, Wildfire, and Burning Man are definitely going to happen, one way or another. 

OK yeah, now that I’m set up to be able to use my phone as well, and to have it show up here, I can see myself getting addicted to twitter… so if you twitter, add me please!

I have NOT been able to sleep or wake up this week… it’s extra bad for some reason.  Work is work, makes for a boring blog. 

Sorry I need to get more coffee.  Just not fully here (or anywhere) mentally!

Why I’m Here

So – what else to do when you are bored at work? (Or, not bored but procrastinating?)  Create a new blog ;o)

I’m fairly spread out online, and I’ve blogged in multiple places. Myspace, Tribe, Zaadz (which changed names to Gaia)…  But, wordpress is easy and it was a cinch to take a domain (I could have sworn I checked before and it wasn’t available!) and point it to it. So now, when I want to exchange info with someone, my domain for here ( in case you came in through the wordpress back door) is much easier than “are you on Myspace? or Facebook?” and sharing multiple user names. So here I am.

Playing around with some of the toys – I’ve used wordpress for another blog but haven’t explored it’s full capabilities.  I now can post a blog post with a photo from my phone, or just send a text to twitter to update the sidebar for that.  I may phase out using the other blogs I have, or at times I may use them for friends only or specific target audiences (i.e., Tribe is mostly my Burning Man and fire artist friends).

So bookmark me, rss feed me, slap my ass and call me Sally… Do whatever you want to do. If you want your blog or account listed in my sidebar just holler!  For more ways to reach me, click that “About me and where to find me” at the top of the page.  Blogwarming gifts much appreciated ;o) 

Listening to: BigJawn’s Healing mix