If you are anything like me, grab a box of tissues before starting this…
today, she is my hero. get out there and do something you can’t do well, if you enjoy it just do it anyway.
leaving for DC, will report back when I get home.
Category: life
Belated happy new year to all!
I was drunker than I thought, and took longer to recover than expected… but still an awesome time. Burned a dresser, kissed my love at midnight (and everyone else), and then hooped in the new year.
Today I’m all ADD while sitting at my desk at work. Recipe for tofu curry. Reading this awesome blog I found. Planning game nights. Discussing fuzzy/lost memories of NYE. Must get drain-o on way home. When can I get out of work. Discussions of lap dances O.o I just want to go home and play xbox……. and I need to upload photos from NYE too!
ETA: one of my favorite memories is sitting next to my love on NYD, eating black eyed peas (in an amy’s frozen dinner, with hotsauce added – yes my tummy survived that!) looking at him and knowing that we’ll be ringing in every new year together, and being so happy about making our own traditions. ❤
So. Another year is almost over and done with. I liked looking back at 2007 last year, making a slide show, and just reminiscing.
Rang in the new year at Minerva’s – headed there again this year, can’t wait for fire and freaky fun 😀
Surprise party for Tacoboy!
Went ghost hunting and we mostly just spooked ourselves as we wandered drunk in the dark and snow – such fun!
Heartburn at PEX – the first time Random and I were in the same room, and we never even knew it 😛 Great party even if it ended too soon.
PEX spin jams and conclave practice throughout the year – an awesome time and I got to know some people much better!
Met Neil Gaiman (again!) and talked BPAL 😛
Backyard birdhouse burn. Great way to say farewell to a friend’s lakehouse.
Minerva & Nabil’s housewarming party – where Random and I met in passing…..
PEX’s Phoenix Rising and Pirates vs Ninjas, at a club instead of home 😦
Spring PDF. Happy sigh. Has to be my top burn of all time. Except for every one since then…. ❤ Here Random and I finally connected, for good. Also, the awesomeness of Camp Deviant and the grilled cheese sammiches!!
Spring wildfire with Liana, Lucky, Andi, and Brian – tons of fun!
Figment NYC – even though we didn’t see much of the island, and we got caught in the rain, a wonderful day!
World Hoop Day and Hoopjams at the UU – the combo brings me big smiles and a peaceful heart. (you rule like a ruling thing that rules!) And firehooping for the first time thanks to ammre!!
Burning Man. What to say. Amazing as always. Relationship stayed strong despite travelling and dust storms. And we ended up getting married 😀
Fall PDF, amazing weather though a bit chilly at night, Deviants for the win.
Diamond dash scavenger hunt and scouring Philly for a diamond ring! Maybe next year!
PEX decom, back on familiar ground, best halloween ever!
Santacon NYC – lots of running around and catching up, or hanging with straggling santas… An odd year for sure but hey, at least we had bar dancing at Coyote Ugly!
There was the bad too.
My grandma Betty passing. The 4 car pile up in Random’s driveway. My friend Lhia’s bad accident. And more.
But in the end, the good outweighs the bad. My grandma no longer suffers. My car was ok. Lhia is thankful to be alive though she struggles with her recovery.
I’m so thankful for everything that happened this year. Growing closer with some friends, and making new ones. Always finding a new adventure, and trying to face all hardships with a sense of humor.
And you all are sick of the happy sappy I’m sure. But the past 7 months have been the best of my life and I am so thankful to have Random by my side, through thick and thin, I know that whatever happens we’ll get through it, and always remind each other of our awesomness. He is the love of my life and I look forward to the adventures we’ll continue to experience together!! i love you baby!
To each of you who made 2008 what it was, thank you, you ROCK!
May your new year be full of joy and peace and love!!!
MWAH!!!!
I did not get any e-greetings out yesterday. Sigh.
A Belated Happy Solstice and Blessed Yule to those who celebrate it! And Happy Hanukkah and Merry Christmas this week!
(Upon being wished “Merry Christmas! Or Happy whatever you celebrate!” I said “I celebrate it all, any reason to be nice is a good holiday in my book!”)
It was a most excellent holiday weekend. Plans were to go to PEXmas in Philly, but with over a half foot of snow falling Friday, and a friend celebrating a birthday locally, the scales tipped ever so slightly in the direction of staying home for a relaxing weekend of cookies, shopping, putting up the tree. Friday night I made cookies with the assistance of the lovely Lynn, who likes to beat my batter (and there’s a blob of peanut butter dough on the ceiling to prove it!). Lynn is my personal Martha Stewart. Only better. Baking/cooking instruction, offers to help organize, and solutions for the most tedious of tasks (usually means adding a bottle of wine) – she knows it all. And Tim donated to our music library while he geeked out with working internet.
Friday night, despite warnings, Random drove up. Didn’t know what the big deal was with the weather until he was 5 miles away, and the roads went from fine to unplowed. On 287. I put up the tree before he arrived, with only the star on top, planning on Stevie getting up to trouble… So far, so good. Knock wood.
Saturday I made the rest of the cookies, wrapped his present, and who knows what else… not much. Oh, made strawberry pancakes for breakfast! YUM! We went out to a local bar for a friend’s birthday, and had a run in with a local Santa bar crawl that I never knew about (and will be blogging on my town blog about the night!) Refueling with empanadas, we returned home to cuddle by the tree, celebrate yule by exchanging our gifts. I like this tradition, as it’s a quieter time than Christmas Eve and Day, and felt right being just us. We stayed up most of the night playing Monty Python Fluxx and Chrononauts, what a way to celebrate the longest night of the year! 😀
Sunday was a sleepy morning with more pancakes, and shopping at the mall in the afternoon. Ran cookies to my dad and grandmother’s houses, and came back home.
Very thankful for such a lovely weekend at home with my love, and creating some new traditions with him.
May you all have an excellent holiday if I don’t talk to you before then!!! Peace and love to you.
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Outside my window, 10 minutes ago. At work. Yup. Many people missing but they all have to use PTO. I can’t, unless I want to skip the inauguration in January.
Is it the snow talking, or do I really want to cancel plans to go to PEX santacon, and stay home and make cookies?
It’s only raining in Philly, so chances are that getting around tomorrow won’t be too problematic… though if it snows while we are partying at the warehouse we may be stuck there till it warms up a little…
Mizz Buttafl’i in her sitting, meditative hooping. Which I am working on, but mine looks much less peaceful than hers does…
Warning: Very stream of consciousness post which meanders. which shouldn’t shock anyone after the last post ;o)
The sun is peaking through the gray skies, just a little bit. On my second mug (i.e., third and fourth cup) of coffee. Either the coffee is getting weaker here or I’m building a resistance again.
Not much different than yesterday, but my mood is definitely brighter. Mentally adjusting to the changing season, the upcoming solstice. Pondering once again how summer is a time to share our fire with others, and winter is the time to fuel our own fire and look inwards.
The hoopjams have moved indoors and we are focusing on core work only – hooping on the body, knees to neck. My inclination is to do little of that. After hooping the day before thanksgiving, I was sore from the workout. It’s hard to focus on self, especially in the midst of others.
Today’s post title inspired by the hoopjam, and learning to change currents (directions). The Hoop Path instructors teach that there is no first/second direction, no right/wrong direction, to encourage hooping in both directions. When you are used to only hooping counter-clockwise, and more off the body moves, and spinning while hooping (last two are “cheats” since I find it difficult to waist hoop in one spot without dropping it) — to be inside, core moves only, and then be told to change direction? That’s tricky. But bringing it inside, doing these restrictions, will only make me (and my hooping) stronger.
And I think that’s why I’m feeling the struggle to change direction. I need to – it’s that time, in nature, in social scenes, hell – in many more places in my life than I’m capable of changing at the moment. While I am frustrated with some things and really want to change that direction, I think I should focus on the inward spiral of winter – nurturing not only myself through this time but also our home and spending quality recharge time with each other.
Though more and more, my winters become full of burner events (last year I started driving to philly for conclave in February), and this necessary down time is sacrificed… I will – and this sounds familiar – seek balance and try to focus more on self care.
It may snow this weekend. But baby we’ve got no place to go (except dinner, in town) so let it snow let it snow let it snow!
So often snow or illness MAKES us stop and rest in the winter. My holiday wish for everyone is that you find the time to rest and recharge yourself before you catch a cold, and enjoy every beautiful snowfall.*
* Why yes, Mizz Buttafl’i, I AM looking at you when I say this 😀 as well as all my other gorgeous friends and family.
Falling in love is like jumping off a cliff blindfolded. At least at first it is. The rush of euphoric moments blind us to everything else.
But I think that at some point, true love involves taking off the blindfold, seeing what’s below, and still leaping. Or wait. We already lept…. OK maybe to not fight for a handhold to stop our fall?
MIxing metaphors like whoa.
But it’s the same metaphor. I have no idea what the point is here, I had some thoughts last night that sounded profound and all, I thought they were coming back to me but apparently not.
The point (maybe) is this. Lately, everyday, I am taking off the blindfold again. Everyday, I wonder what the hell I am doing on the edge of this cliff. And shortly after, I think of (or see) his smile, I feel or remember his embrace, his heart, his words…
And I leap again.
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Maybe it’s the monthly emotional roller coaster. Maybe it’s a little seasonal depression. I feel like I am playing grown up, a mockery of adulthood, pretending I have my shit together but really feeling like I have no clue and my life is spiraling out of control.
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Wrote the above yesterday but didn’t post it. Wasn’t making much sense. Still feeling the blahs – whatever the culprit is, I don’t know. I think they are temporary. I hope so. Trying to do Christmas shopping while worrying about money/personal finances, about commercialism, what it does to us as humans – really? trampling someone just for a sale? sigh.
Sitting here wrapped in my love’s sweatshirt, talking of moving some of his furniture here, hanging on to what’s important, what counts.
My favorite places in the world are places filled with you. (Brian Andreas)
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This month is gonna fly by. This weekend, lounging, sewing costumes, hanging with friends. 13th – NYC Santacon. 20th – PEX Santacon. Christmas. Out of town family/friends passing through. I may be neglectful of reaching out to you, wrapped up in trying to stay sane through the craziness, but holler if you want to go to Santacon or just meet up for coffee.
It’s the season of light, whatever your faith… Time to remember the brightness as the world gets a little darker, allowing us time to go inwards and find the inner fire that gives us strength to get through the cold.
Keep on burning……
A coworker just was saying to me yesterday about how life goes faster and faster, and you need to step back. It’s true.
In the past year I’ve had some ups and downs, but by far, the good has outweighed the bad.
It seems like a lifetime ago that I met a Random guy, and yet the months have flown by in the meantime. I don’t think I’ve stopped smiling in the past 6 months, and if I did, it wasn’t for long.
My grandmother passed, but at that point it was a blessing, we didn’t want her to suffer any further.
The memories made with friends and my love this year have been outstanding, and though it’s hard to believe, I know we’ll keep making better and better memories and experiences and adventures. As good as this year was, the next is going to be even more amazing. I just know it.
So my birthday wishes for myself (I don’t believe keeping things secret helps them come true… except for certain circumstances)
~ to continue to share love and adventures with Random ❤
~ to deepen the friendships that I have and spend more time with those I care about
~ to find a more rewarding career or hobby that can become one
~ to let go of guilt over things that are not my fault or not under my control
~ to just be. in the moment.
~ to always be grateful for the blessings in my life
33. I am liking the symmetry, and 3 is always a good number.
It’s gonna be an awesome year 😀
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